I’ve been thinking quite a bit today about the limits that we put on ourselves on a regular basis.
I did some training on my x-trainer today, and before I got on I was determined to do at least 20 minutes (previous record recently has been 12 min 30 sec) of high intensity, with 6 intervals. I did a 5 minute warmup, first 30 second interval, 1 min 30 sec lower intensity (during which I had several fleeting thoughts of “I can’t do this”, with several variations). Told myself I COULD do it, so did a second 30 sec interval, and then my mind went nuts and I caved, stepped off the machine. Had my heart rate close to 156bpm too! I sat down for a few minutes and paused my HRM, waited until it slowed down to about 90, then got back on. HR went right back up to the mid 140’s. Did another 3 intervals, pushing HR to the 160’s, then gave it away. Total 17 minutes 13 seconds, with 5 intervals. Ave HR 142, max HR 162, calories burned, 217. Time in fat burning zone, 3 min 15 sec, time in fitness zone, 13 min 58 sec. Several minutes better than my previous sessions, but not what I had planned in my head.
Given that I had planned at least 20 minutes in the one session, what made me give up before I had achieved what I wanted?
My mind. Seriously. I consciously recognised several unhelpful thoughts as they ran through. “I’m gonna die”, “this is too hard”, “I can’t breathe”, “I need a rest”, “I need to catch my breath”
I had great plans (before workout) to come here and post about how I had beaten my mind, pushed myself and accomplished a GREAT workout. And yet here I sit, acknowledging that this time, my head won the battle to keep me comfortable.
The thing is, I KNOW that I am capable of a lot more than I am achieving at this point. Considering that my resting HR is usually in the mid to high 60’s, isn’t that an indication of the health of my heart? I know I can do more. I have yet to do any strength training. My mind keeps telling me that it’ll be a pain in the butt to swap and change all the connections, that my HR will go down too low and my body will cool down by the time I figure out what I need to do next. And yet I know that without taking the time to figure it out, I’m not going to get any quicker at it. Go figure.
I need to make this happen. I WILL win this. I WILL get this done. And I WILL smash the 500cal burn per session. 🙂