I’m not sure what I want to write here, so I’m going to allow my fingers to do what they need and see what pops out the other end …
What makes people give up on things? Or even follow through on what they know they need to do to reach their goals. I have found myself sitting on the couch watching TV when I know I need to be training. Or cooking. Or working on mindset tasks. Or whatever.
This may be more self sabotage than giving up, cause I DO want this. I DO want to be where I am right now. I really WANT the changes I see other people making. Despite a 2.9kg donation this week, I feel somehow … dissatisfied. Strange.
Dissatisfied in the effort I know I am capable of. Dissatisfied in the procrastination. In 2005 I was spending 3 hours at a time at the gym. 20 min treadmill, 20 min X-trainer, upper body weight routine, and an aqua class, one after the other. And I LOVED it! And now, all I seem to be capable is a half-assed, 15-ish minute session on my x-trainer. I justify it to myself by arguing that I haven’t trained for several years, I need to ease back into it. Which is total BS!! I am allowing my mind to rule my behaviour!
I am finding this quite frustrating. I KNOW what I need to do. I KNOW I am capable of it. And yet, I am not DOING it.
So, if I were talking to someone else about their stuff, I would suggest that they go back to their WHY. Why do they want this? How much do they want this? I’d ask them to list all the things that would happen if they chose to stay the same, and all the things that would happen if they made the change. I know that to help myself I need to go back to Michelle’s preseason tasks and do them properly. Commit to and spend the time necessary to play full out with them. Really get in there and get my hands dirty with them.
It would also benefit me to have someone to be accountable to. Someone I know who will be honest and kick me up the proverbial when I don’t follow through. I have the perfect person in mind, so I am going to send an email right now and ask for some support. I know I will get it, cause this person was around in 2005 to help me when I flagged then.
In addition, right here, right now, I will commit publicly, to you, to do those preseason tasks PROPERLY, and to report on them here. Time for me to step up and JDFI people!