These past couple of weeks have been a bit of a challenge. Two weeks ago I discovered an extra 2.5kg of fluid my body was hanging on to (a common occurrence). Since it has been a common thing, I thought to myself, no problem, it’ll come off by next week. As the week progressed, it went up a further 2+ kg, and then decided to release it and I ended up 400g lighter than the week before.
As this week has progressed my mind has become more active and once again it has gotten in the way (big surprise lol). So much so that I have progressively been eating more crap and yesterday I had a binge reminiscent of old times. After my training session. It is half way through the week and my body is still holding onto this fluid. A part of me knows that it will continue to hold it until I can release the head shit that is holding me back, and another part is incredibly frustrated by the whole experience and is contributing to the head shit (go figure!)
I watched a Mish video today on getting back on track and decided that I really want and need to revisit some of the preseason tasks, particularly those associated with the reasons why I began this program in the first place and what I want to get out of it. What I want to achieve, the life I want to live.
I have had a friend tell me that I think too much (no newsflash there!). She said it like this and made me laugh out loud in the process (primarily because she is spot on!!):
Stop thinking, stop talking, stop trying to figure yourself out – you will know yourself when you are ready to. Stop using your intelligence as an excuse for being stupid.